I Had to Give My Brother Permission to Die 20 Years Ago on New Year's Eve
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Being only 10 months older than me, Mom used to sometimes dress us like twins when we were little. I always liked to think that we possessed that super special, twin-like bond. While Chris and our eldest brother, Penn, shared a bedroom with stacked bunk beds, Chris and I pestered our parents almost every weekend to let him have a sleepover in my room until they relented. As any brother and sister, we did our share of squabbling, but we were also best buddies.
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